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Sometimes I look back on life and get myself into these little ruts.
Could I have done better? Should I have taken that opportunity? Would I be a different person if ‘xyz’ hadn’t happened? In a different reality did I take a different route in career choices?
It’s things like these that get me down sometimes, envisioning the person I could’ve been if I’d applied myslef more, if circumstances had been different for me.
Then I realise that if I’d been any different or chosen any diffeent route that I probably wouldn’t know the people I do today, and that always lifts me a bit. I have to be grateful for the people I’ve come into contact with because of the life I’ve led, and also be grateful for the fact that although things are never perfect, they could’ve been a lot worse.
Life is reaching a stagnation point for me it seems. I’ve made my career choices, I have my plans, but of course it’s never easy achieving them, and sometimes that makes me ponder on these thoughts. Would I like an easy life? Of course I would, who wouldn’t? The key thing though that I always realise is that no matter how much pondering or thinking I do, I’ll always be stuck with my past decisions and still wake up the same guy I am today. I have to make do and try my best to further myself in what I’ve chosen, and unlike in all the sci-fi films I’ve been watching recently, it’s impossible to change the past to affect the future.
Even though I seem to fall into these low points, I guess it’s time to get back on track. Again.
Sometimes I wish that I could blend into society and not be noticed. Be part of the world without drawing attention to myself.
It was brought to the forefront of my mind yesterday, in fact. I was on a job taking photographs at an event as I do, and when the evening drew to a close thee was a short speech of thanks. Now, I’d been up front using my 50mm lens in order to get as much light as possible in the rather dark hall, so you can imagine how many people I’d distracted with my camera beeps and shutter sounds. It wasn’t a very nice feeling.
So when this speech of thanks came up (which by friend was leading), I was actually relieved when my name didn’t crop up at all. I’ve never liked being in the spotlight, especially with a lot of people. Sure I don’t mind taking photos, I love it actually, but it’s always got to me how much attention can be drawn to me when I’m up there snapping away. It’s unnerving. I’m the type of guy who’d rather fade into obscurity and not be recognised by the masses for my work, which I know completely contradicts the line of work I’m in.
I’m by no means ashamed of my work though, not at all. I don’t loathe doing public camera work because of any shame it brings. No, it’s just the way I feel about attention.
Some revel in it, and try to get as much as possible through odd or striking behaviour hoping to leave their mark on people. I, on the other hand, would rather leave marks, but leave them in such a way that people would forget my name, and leave the attention seeking to someone else. It’s an odd notion I know, but for those of us who do operate like this I’m sure it makes sense.
I sometimes wish that I had something that would hide me from normal eyes not only while I work, allowing them to focus on the main attraction, but just in everyday life, allowing me to be a ghost to some extent. Sometimes it feels like that already, especially in crowded cities and town centres, but a more permanent solution would be more than welcome.
It brings me to the title of my post. Now, if anyone has watched Doctor Who, the British TV program, they’ll know what I mean. If not, then in it’s simplest terms a perception filter is a device that doesn’t make one invisible, but rather makes them extremely hard to notice, and if someone’s not looking for the object hidden behind one, they will often ignore it.
Maybe it’s about time I delved into science a bit more.
So yesterday I felt like I ought to try new things.
And so I did!
Creating a poly art portrait was what I decided to do since I have a newfound obsession with the stuff. It took time, around 7-8 hours total, and the method and workflow was a very long and tedious process involving real photography, photoshop manipulation, and illustrator wizardry in order to bring it all together.
Creating the wire mesh seen above was the most time consuming part of the process, I can tell you that now. Drawing all those rough triangles by hand between a trackpad and Magic Mouse wasn’t exactly enjoyable.
It all paid off though in the end! After drawing the mesh, perfecting it with vectors, and filling in all the pieces in relation to the base image, I was darn impressed with my efforts on a first try! I can honestly say that I’m open to taking requests for this line of art. In fact, I’ve already got two lined up! Let me know if anyone wants one!
And if you’re wondering about the title, I figured once I’d finished this that my pose was similar to some sort of royalty portrait, which instantly made me think of Far Cry 4 and Pagan Min. If you know who I’m on about, then the final line shouldn’t surprise you at all.
May Alex’s light shine upon you all.
Alex, your englishes need help. Work on your alphabeticals!— Rubie Holyoake
We often take different paths in life, and cross a lot of bridges in order to get over the obstacles put before us and advance from where we are to where we want to be. Let’s hope that those paths stay clear, and the bridges we cross stay stable.
Good artists borrow. Great artists steal. — Pablo Picasso